When Push Comes to Shove

If you follow my personal Facebook page, you might have seen that yesterday was kind of an interesting day for me. It went something like this:

My day started out with a snarly email from a neighbor - rife with hypocrisy. All over a few potholes.
Then my duties as PTA President came to call - opinions were flying like facts and someone (me) had the lucky job of seeing all sides and creating a plan.
This was followed by 2 client appointments. One of which was bordering on skeptical and I had to fight my normal urge to either retreat or "prove" myself. While the other was struggling with medical complications and my fears of "enough-ness" were ripe to pounce.
Only to take a "quick" Facebook break and find that someone who has recently invited me to their FB networking group was now heatedly challenging my religious beliefs, name-calling, and otherwise disparaging me and my business despite know very little about any of it.
And it was all topped off with a trip to my regular tire center where their quote for 2 tires was not honored, instead "requiring" a purchase of 4 (more expensive, less effective) tires due to "new company policy."

It's always deeper than you think.

So, why am I telling you this? Pity? Victimhood? To publicly shame these people and businesses?

I tell you this to show you I'm not perfect either. Because these were all opportunities for me to speak up for myself, speak my truth, practice using my voice. As you know, this is something I struggle with - my throat chakra.

Sometimes I handle these circumstances well and sometimes I fall into self-pity and victimhood. But as the years go by, I am learning and growing and making the most of these opportunities. Sometimes it's a "win" and sometimes it's not. Sometimes I come through with poise and grace and sometimes I look more like a petulant toddler. But it's all part of the growth process.

Despite all the opportunities yesterday, I feel like I came out on top. I (mostly) handled myself well and I forgave myself for the mis-steps.

But here's the bigger thing. I had a new revelation this morning.

Our issues are NEVER isolated.

Duh, right? But sometimes we don't see the obvious, and this was my ah-ha moment. This wasn't just a throat chakra issue for me because all of my chakras are connected. They are all part of me.

This is so clear to me when talking to my clients - I even talked about it with a client yesterday! She asked me why her session seemed to have a common theme, especially when she knew she had other issues going on in her life. It doesn't make sense because we were looking at all 7 chakras - each with their own themes. But that's because these themes aren't isolated. All the chakras are intertwined.

But sometimes it is hard to see yourself in the same ego-free light. And this morning was my turn. Because what I've been thinking was an isolated throat chakra issue, affects all the pieces of me. In other words, I also feel it in my other chakras as well. Which might look like:

My Root stressed about safety or fear of persecution.
My Sacral Chakra needing permission to express my emotions.
My Solar Plexus seeking confidence in who I really am.
My Heart wanting love and approval.
My Third Eye knowing but not fully trusting.
And my Crown lacking unwavering connection to source.

Does this make me super broken? Clueless? Helpless? Worthless?

Heck no!

It makes me perfectly able to see you and your hurts without judgment or ego.

To appreciate you and your human-ness as you learn and grow and expand.

And it gives me the opportunity to talk to you about growth rings.

Your Growth Rings

That feeling you get - that life repeats itself - is totally normal! because it's actually true.

It doesn't mean you failed the lesson last time. It's there to reinforce the lesson in a new scenario.

Sometimes it happens in 5 different, little ways in a single day and sometimes it comes through in big life ways periodically throughout the years.

It just means that this is a lesson your soul needs to learn in this lifetime. And it will keep circling back again and again until it is a molehill instead of a mountain. Until you trust yourself, speak your truth, confront your issues with conviction, have faith in your path/purpose/journey, intuitively know how to proceed next time, and stand your ground - feeling safe and secure in your being.